February 25, 2008 | Filed under: Boys Are Dumb
This really isn’t what I wanted to write about today. First off, there are so many other things to get you caught up on, like why I neglect this place like an unwanted alley cat. Second, I wanted to tell you about how, three years ago today, I met someone wonderful and, despite all the bumps along the road (and boy howdy, were there some potholes the size of Texas in that particular road), we were, amazingly, still talking, still seeing each other, still holding hands. But this is the most newsiest news I’ve got, so those other things are going to take a backseat for the moment.
After three years of self-imposed patience, forced openness, and constant understanding, the unceasing support I provided, not to mention the overlooking of current and past sins — oh, so much overlooking — the mental begging, pleading, wheedling, cajoling, and willing myself to just hang in there, it’s worth it – we’re done talking.
The details aren’t important. I asked the hard questions. He talked. I listened. I left. As a parting shot before I left I quoted a line he’s used on me a number of times – a line I hate with a white-hot fury – because when somebody stabs me in the gut with a knife, I am, in fact, self-righteous enough to grab the handle myself and give it a hard twist clockwise 90 degrees. Feels good, doesn’t it?
Then I left, in a manner not unlike what he claims is the best closing scene to a movie ever.
It’s not so bad, really. I’ve had worse. But the rendering meaningless of three years of my life isn’t likely to sit well with me. So, if you’re into this sort of thing, would you mind praying for a little healing for me? My liver’s gonna need it.
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I know it sucks, but I’m glad at least that you can finally close the book on that. Next book…McTasty?
February 25th, 2008 at 10:24 pmA.A.MO!!! But you already know that since we’ve had that conversation before….
February 26th, 2008 at 9:41 amI’m sorry you hurt, sorry you have to deal with this…but glad you are such a strong, damn fine woman and that he doesn’t get any more of your valuable time!
Sending prayers, positive thoughts (and a really good bottle of Japanese shochu if you want it!)
February 26th, 2008 at 10:55 amPrayers going out for your liver, heart, and any other internal organs that may come under attack.
February 26th, 2008 at 6:26 pmUgh! I sooo know this feeling. I once wasted 2.5 years on a guy. Finally, one day, I asked him “Am I ever going to get what I want from you?” and when he said “no” that was it. I was done and I was finally able to walk away. I’m sorry it happened to you, too.
Here’s a prayer for healing, a prayer for something better. And here’s to the next three years being infinitely better.
February 26th, 2008 at 8:10 pmI am so sorry, K. Of course you were crossing your fingers for something much better, something more. I was crossing my fingers for you, too.
Call me anytime. And you and your liver definitely have my prayers.
Here’s to new beginnings.
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